Had people fuck me over I woulda never thought Fucking this bitch I told her choke me ´til she choke me out Need to be punished need to be hurt ´til it´s out my heart
Take that emotional pain turn it to a bunch of scars Feel like I´m not worthy for nobody Every month my dad remind me How I broke a bunch of promises When I was on all kinda shit I done paid his house Done paid his cards Gave him a car I couldn´t afford Bought mom a car Bought Slim a car G need that cash for his little boy
But this shit hurt, fuck, yeah Tryna show my younger brothers they gotta put in work, yeah, yeah I can try to give ´em the world but I can´t give self-worth, nah, yeah
I know that pain, pop it away ´til it gets way past Percs, yeah, yeah Wishing it worked
Now what´s right don´t always feel good Trauma I done endured Gotta hear it when I sing to ´em Feel this ain´t gonna end good Just wanna end these problems Think about it way too often, yeah Too scared to get close to these bitches So I run ´em off Most the time can´t even fuck ´cause my dick too soft Don´t know if it´s meds or it´s my head or if they turn me off If we gone do this, fuck me rough, and let me hit it raw
Had this girl come into my life I think I´m falling for her Feel like she love me for me but hey I´ve been wrong before Told her my flaws, showed her the closet to my hidden bones Trying my hardest to be honest without sabotage Don´t know if I´ll ever be a father If I should even bother How do I raise a kid? Still tryna help my father Still stuck in a delusion These boundaries so confusing Can´t bring myself to do it No more shooting up solutions
I still ride ´til the Lord come calling on me Like fuck withdrawals I rather OD
Like fuck these pills won´t put me to sleep Ready to trade, these mills for a bit of peace
Miss my my grandma miss my grandpa fuck I miss ´em all Hope they understand I love ´em just a little lost Hope they proud that I´m something Stunting like a boss When they see me face-to-face I know they see the cost
And I just wanna end these problems, yeah, yeah, yeah Think about it way too often, yeah, yeah, yeah